Lately I've been feeling somewhat.... jumbled. I just moved temporarily to a new city, I am close to graduating, I am 1 month from going on a cruise to Mexico, and I am 3 months away from being an aunt for the 4th time. While all that is extremely exciting, I can't help but feel a little scattered.
I have always liked stability, but have more recently yearned for change. New city, new people, and new ideas. I'm on the look-out for my people- my place. There is always the adjustment period when relocating. I remember going through it in Roanoke, in Auburn, and then in Montgomery, and now in Nashville. It's hard to describe really. It's a blend of excitement and homesickness. The Nashville move has by far been the best. Of course I moved here with Jeremy, so that helps. I think perhaps this move has been better because it's temporary (although now we joke about not wanting to go back, ha). But, alas, we must. Hopefully to return in June or July, Lord willing.
I found this quote a little while ago:
When I do good, I feel good; when I do bad, I feel bad. That's my religion. - Abraham Lincoln
It hit home with recent events in my life. Personal struggles and inner triumphs. When it's broken down isn't this how we all feel?
We do something good- learn a new skill, workout, show kindness or mercy, forgive, love- and we feel on top of the world- We have acted "godly".
And then we act "human"- we are impatient, we make a bad choices, we are inconsiderate or close-minded.
I have found myself acting more "human" these days, and I don't feel too good about it. So, I'm going to try to change some things. If I am going to expect others to show kindness, generosity, and patience than I have to do the same. I seem to remember something about the Golden Rule....
The older I get the more I realize how I have high standards for people. Maybe higher than I
should have. I think I get it from my father. I remember the crushed look on his face when others disappointed him, especially me.
Lately, these high standards have gotten me almost avoiding others. I think that I have set my standards so high that I have closed my mind to embracing others differences, and that is something that I have never wanted to happen. I have always wanted to embraces others- never wanted to see color, religion, or politics. But, that is our world... I guess my awareness has been raised since the healthcare bill passed (neutral is not a popular place to be in politics right now).
So, I'm going to try and come back down to reality. See others for who they are, themselves. Enjoy and appreciate that and take no one and no thing for granted- practice His religion.
